The Tensions of Being a SAHM

Awhile ago, on a Tuesday afternoon, I texted my husband thanking him for being at work because “I AM LIVING MY DREAM!” I pushed the stroller inside the mall, making a return at Kohl’s and thought, “This is living!” But then that same day, later in the evening, I cried tears into the dishwasher after…

More Than A Milestone

The first time I felt it was 9 days after Mila was born. We brought in our 7 something pound baby to the doctor for her first check-up after being discharged from the NICU a few days prior. We were anxious to see what she weighed, because like a lot of babies, she lost some…

A Million Little Moments: Mila’s Birth Story

My pregnancy with Mila was a roller coaster. A second trimester diagnosis that led to shots in my belly and a million appointments. A pandemic that left me isolated from friends and family. Pre-term labor at 30 weeks that landed me on bedrest. It was just me and my husband and a Costco sheet cake…

He Saw Mila

Fear has always played a large role in my life. It has robbed me of joy, stolen my peace, and wasted precious time I will never get back. I just put Mila, my 11 week old daughter, down for her first nap of the day. She has this outrageously soft, luxury blanket she was given…

The Weirdest Babymoon Ever

Having a series of dramatic “lasts” before our baby was born was just something I expected. Like a last date night, just the two of us without getting a babysitter. or the last weekend visiting our parents without loading the car full of baby gear. I imagined and expected these last few months before baby…

Pregnancy in the Pandemic

Two months ago, I got a phone call from my doctor that shifted the direction of our pregnancy. These were Pre-Coronavirus times in my area so up until then, my pregnancy had been, for the most part, smooth. (Minus the 14 weeks of throwing up and general physical misery). After some testing I had done…

Mild Anxiety and Medium Salsa

I connect on a personal level with the Grandparents from Willy Wonka – before the whole golden ticket thing. I would live in my bed if I could. My husband will be out meandering around the house and he will come visit me – sometimes with snacks. Those are my favorite times. I cry the…

My Husband’s Jeep

Last Thursday we said goodbye to my husband’s Jeep. We traded it in and bought a “Mom Mobile” for me. My husband Max will pull the ultimate “Dad Move” and now drive my 2013 Honda Civic for the great gas mileage and trusty reliability. The new mid-size SUV is safer and the right move for…

The Doctor’s Scale and Eternal Weight

There are a lot of reasons I shouldn’t care what the scale says tomorrow when I visit the doctor. But I do. My relationship with my weight has been a long and complicated one – since the little old lady at the YMCA fastened my life jacket on our fourth grade field trip at the…

Great Expectations

Fall is hands down the hardest season when it comes to expectations. After a long, stifling summer, we simply cannot wait for all that comes with the cooling weather and turn of the calendar. My friends and I joke that often our own expectations are our worst enemy. I would go as far as to…