The Doctor’s Scale and Eternal Weight

There are a lot of reasons I shouldn’t care what the scale says tomorrow when I visit the doctor. But I do. My relationship with my weight has been a long and complicated one – since the little old lady at the YMCA fastened my life jacket on our fourth grade field trip at the…

Great Expectations

Fall is hands down the hardest season when it comes to expectations. After a long, stifling summer, we simply cannot wait for all that comes with the cooling weather and turn of the calendar. My friends and I joke that often our own expectations are our worst enemy. I would go as far as to…

Worth the Wait

My husband and I were good friends for 6 months before we went on a date. I cannot take credit for this, because I liked him immediately and was 2 years behind my marriage timeline. There was no time to wait. I was impulsive and emotional. He was logical and strategic. We met at a…

To My Best Friend’s Angel Baby

My best friend gave birth to her stillborn baby boy, Max, on May 8, after suffering the loss of 7 miscarriages. Getting the news of his death was obviously devastating, and like usual, I processed my grief with words and sent this to her the day she found out. I have watched my friend grieve…

The Best Thing My Husband Has Ever Said to Me

I say a lot of words in our marriage. I operate under the assumption that if I have a thought, there is only one place for it to go: out. The amount of words I say to my husband in a week couldn’t possibly be calculated. Things like, “my knee is itching weird.” or Pressing…

Top Blessings of A Hard Year

We are just halfway through the calendar year, but for most teachers a year runs September-June. I wasn’t sure I would make it through this one, but with 1.5 days left I can say with moderate confidence I will make it. Crawling maybe, but I am mostly sure I will make it to the finish…

3 Things I’ve Learned From My New Mindfulness Routine

I started meditating recently on a regular basis and I am absolutely, positively terrible at it. Trying to quiet my mind and just sit in a moment feels like the most foreign thing in the world and I do. not. like. it. It’s like my brain is Santa’s workshop on Christmas Eve. It’s 5pm and…

A State of Knowing

My husband keeps the volume for his car radio at a 15. Always. The same station, the same volume, no exceptions, unless I’m in the car. I remember early in our dating days, I would hear a song I loved and attempt to crank it. Max would grimace a bit, worried about his speakers, and…

In the Desert

My spiritual life has felt like a desert this year. Tumbleweeds tumbling, blazing sun blazing, bone-dry desert. In the darkest of moments, I wonder if maybe it’s just not possible for me – to feel that connection with God again or feel His presence. I have actually questioned whether God even knows me at all-…

Everything All At Once

I fell apart making lunches last night. Drizzling honey over plain greek yogurt (because we all know it tastes like spoiled sour cream without it), I lost it. The tears started to fall and the anxiety welled and the world went a little fuzzy. My husband comforted me, as he does. He was gentle, as…