On Toddler Meltdowns that aren’t from Toddlers

The scene this Saturday morning is much different from that of 12 hours ago. The smell of freshly brewed coffee wafts through the house, along with the Cinnamon/Orange oil combination I am obsessed with diffusing. I am downstairs in my little office nook, sipping on the aforementioned coffee, listening to the sounds of my daughter…

Just a Few Things: Dinners, Libraries, & Sick Days

When it comes to making ambitious life goals and only working towards them for 3 days, I am your girl. I am ALL hype and little follow through. It is one of my least favorite things about myself and the reason I have announced countless half marathons, new morning routines and Whole 30 stints. I…

Awhile to get Here

Expectations have always been a doozy for me. A few weeks before my husband and I were to be married, he had a trip for work over to the East Coast. At the time, we had a journal that we wrote to each other in, because nonstop texting and seeing each other daily just wasn’t…

The Tensions of Being a SAHM

Awhile ago, on a Tuesday afternoon, I texted my husband thanking him for being at work because “I AM LIVING MY DREAM!” I pushed the stroller inside the mall, making a return at Kohl’s and thought, “This is living!” But then that same day, later in the evening, I cried tears into the dishwasher after…

More Than A Milestone

The first time I felt it was 9 days after Mila was born. We brought in our 7 something pound baby to the doctor for her first check-up after being discharged from the NICU a few days prior. We were anxious to see what she weighed, because like a lot of babies, she lost some…

A Million Little Moments: Mila’s Birth Story

My pregnancy with Mila was a roller coaster. A second trimester diagnosis that led to shots in my belly and a million appointments. A pandemic that left me isolated from friends and family. Pre-term labor at 30 weeks that landed me on bedrest. It was just me and my husband and a Costco sheet cake…

He Saw Mila

Fear has always played a large role in my life. It has robbed me of joy, stolen my peace, and wasted precious time I will never get back. I just put Mila, my 11 week old daughter, down for her first nap of the day. She has this outrageously soft, luxury blanket she was given…

The Weirdest Babymoon Ever

Having a series of dramatic “lasts” before our baby was born was just something I expected. Like a last date night, just the two of us without getting a babysitter. or the last weekend visiting our parents without loading the car full of baby gear. I imagined and expected these last few months before baby…

Pregnancy in the Pandemic

Two months ago, I got a phone call from my doctor that shifted the direction of our pregnancy. These were Pre-Coronavirus times in my area so up until then, my pregnancy had been, for the most part, smooth. (Minus the 14 weeks of throwing up and general physical misery). After some testing I had done…

Mild Anxiety and Medium Salsa

I connect on a personal level with the Grandparents from Willy Wonka – before the whole golden ticket thing. I would live in my bed if I could. My husband will be out meandering around the house and he will come visit me – sometimes with snacks. Those are my favorite times. I cry the…